~~ lagi-lagi berpantang ~~

4.35pm @ home - mama masih dirumah, hehehhe ade sbln lebih lg ni... masih punya byk masa untuk menulis, cume kelapangan je xde....... lately dlm merenung2 kejauhan........ mama terase b4 this byk sgt yg mama complaint, bout life.. bout work, bout kids, hubby and myself... byk yg mama xpuas hati.... mama don't earn much as some of my frens... keje mama pon biase2 jer.. xoutstanding lgsunggg... kids kekdg xdenga ckp eee wat mama geram... hubby cm xsyg sgtla... n last but not least, myself yg not a 'model figure' kekdg rase memalukan jugaklaa............... but what to do kan??.............. as human kiter selalu gagal melihat yg disebalik kejadian dan ketentuanNYA... tp is it totally takdirNYA atau is it the caused of my failure?... tapi whatever pon kiter kene redha kan?

setelah mama tenung2 kembali... mama kene bersyukur dgn apa yg ade... kalu tgk 'Bersamamu' tu... ermm baru tahu betapa beruntungnyer diri ni... ade ramai lg yg lebih unfortunate dr mama ni... Alhamdulillah, kesusahan mama ni xseberapa lg berbanding mereka... kalu nk complaint pesal budak2, ade org yg masih xde zuriat setelah puluhan tahun hidup bersama... mmg mama kene bersyukur........ Alhamdulillah.... suamiku yg kekdg cm kurg mesra alam tu pon sebenanyer pelengkap pd kekurangan diri ni...... bile sendiri ni baru la tahu mnghargai, baru lah nmpk apa yg baik.......... ermmm apakan daya..............

tv kt hall ni bersemut, sakit mate nengok nyer, tp nk selesa baring n duduk kt sofa mmg kt cni la... sblm ni abah buat semenyer perfect, skrg ni masalah cmni pon xde org leh tolg tgk... barulah ku tahu betapa kehebatan suami ku itu tiada tolok bandingnya.... yer ah xkan nk panggil org kedai tgk masalah kecek cmni kot... ekekkek.......... paip2 dlm toilet tu menitis2 air nyer, abah juge yg buleh repair nyer... nk wat cabinet, xde bdget lg, abah leh watkan mama rail tuk letak curtain bwh sink tu, wat para, at least mama leh smpan piuk2, kuali2 bwh tu tanpa view yg menyakitkan mate.... serba buleh sungguh en Aznizam saye....... :) ......

ermmm lapa perot plak ptg2 ni... mama nk g wat cucur bwg jap ah.... adios 4 now...........

~~ berpantang lagi? ~~

4.26pm @ home - ermmm mama masih lg berpantang di rumah.... body masih xberapa segar lg ni, tp camne pon kne gagahkan dr jugak........ almaklumla mak mertua dah blk... abah pon nk blk dah.... tgal la mama ngan budak2 ngan mokteh dn poklang............... :)

mokteh byk nolong lg... nguruskan abg aQiL ngan kakak Zahra... mama ngurus Azraf je dulu, ... tp slowly mama ngah adjustla.. harap2 semenyer berjalan lancar.... tp paling mama xtahan..... bler abg or akaknyer nk something or need new diaper, adiknyer plak meraung2 nk attention n susu...... aduss jd stress tau... yer ahh.. yg meraungnyer bukan sayup2... jd kelam kabut kiter dbuatnyer tu yg mula nk nengking sane cni tu............... ish ish ish....... ni baru 3... yg bederet setahun sorg camne?????!!! Yakin boleh! mama kene boleh!!!

hari ni hari ke 25 dah.... sket lg nk sebulan dah....

ermm mcm kejap je ek.... Azraf dah pndai skrg... nk org dodoi die tdo.. bler dah tdo kiter letak jer dlm cot tu die mule resah then bunyi o ek o ek suh org angkat................. eeee saje je adik nk suh mama mmbebel tauuu............. sabo2.......


dr merapu tah pape baik mama letak gambo sket....

Azraf kenyenyakan..............
























Azraf, kesegaran..................





















hehehhehehe.................................



ops ade lg satu pic mama nk letak, our 1st time outing together, 4 beranak, g Kuantan anta Ashu blk kL.. hihihi Azraf baru 20hari...........

~~ berpantang lagi ~~

7.59pm, @ home - ermmm namenyer pon berpantang, pasti lah @ home kan? hehehhehe... tah pape la mama ni....... anyway, ... rini MIL dah blk kL ngan kak long n abg long.. uurrmmm sedey plak... bkn sdey sbb xde org nk tolong kt umah ni dah but kali ni baru terase nk bonding sket ngan mak, tp mase tu cm jealous jer ngan kitorg ni......... huhuhuhu.......... :(

semlm abg zani, kak sue n 2 org anak buah dorg dtg.. ngan along n abg long, meriah la sket rumah ni semlm... hr ni along blk, abg zani blk esok, stat la sunyi blk, tp abah ngan abg im ade lagi so ok la....

nurse dtg cek rini... erm patutnyer hari ke 15 tp hr ni plak die smpai, xper la, janji ade org leh cek luke mama ni... ermmmm cm yg disangke, mmg luke mama xberape pulih lg... dah 2mgu tp still xfully recover lg... :( lmbt plak.... sblm2 ni cepat sket..... errrmmmm mcm2 laa... xsaba tgu luke ni bebetul2 ok............................ pasni mama dah kene stat wat seme sndri ni... aduss.... ngan luke ni rase xkonfiden lgsung nk lasak2, kehulu kehilir nk begerak................

xper la pelan2 kene wat gak, sape lg nk urus rumah tangge ni kan?............. terpakse la nmpk nyer....

rabu ni ashu nk dtg... moge terhibur sket hari2 die ade nnt.......... :) ashu leh harap gak... w/pon kekadang menaikan darah mama yg mmg xde darah tinggi ni... hehhehehe.............. tp sbb adik sndri kan so buleh la mama marah2 sket, hehhehehe..........

oh rini dpt surat, mule2 suprise + then gumbira! + lege... Alhamdulillah, yg mama tertanye2 dah terjwb.. yg mama rindu pon terubat sket.. yg mama rsaukan pon dan melegekan..... syukur pd Allah...................................

hari ni mengalir airmata syukur mama dek berita yg tak disangka2................................ :o)

Alhamdulillah.............

tgh godek2 tpon samsung, mama tejumpe gmba ni.... ermmm sblm ni xperasan plak.... ade pon gmba 3 beranak ni yg comei sket.... heheheh...

missing the good old days..........

~~ berpantang ~~

4.15pm, @ home - ermm.... diam2 rupenyer dah cukop 14hari dah mama berpantang, counting from the 15th Jan as 1st day... tah kenapa bdn ni xrase sesegar mane... xmcm pantang abg Aqil n akak Zahra dulu... maybe sbb missing someone, emotion mama pon effects fizikal ni... xper la insyaAllah lepas amik jamu2 sket pasni ok la hendak nyer...

kt cni mama nk letak gamba 1st day Azraf lah... se ni kt pangkuan wan belah abah nyer...

kt Hosp. Kemaman, ptg, lepas bersalin 12.11t/hari tu..

kembang semcm mama tgk.. ermmm gitu la kalu dah 4.0kg hehehhe...

yg ni plak semgu lepas tu...

Alhamdulillah, semuanyer berjalan lancar... walaupun Azraf sangkut bahu se mama nk deliver ritu, selamat juga Azraf mama deliver tanpa complication yg serius.... syukurlah Azraf dont need any other form of assistance............. Alhamdulillah................

Berpantang kali ni pon lain sket.... mama mmgla byk sket luke... tp MIL mmg byk sgt mmbantu... dgn Azraf xbyk wat hal... senang mama nk berbengkong, ngurus diri... terasenyer Allah telah memudahkan segalanya.......... masuk mgu ke 2 ni, ok sket dah rase, bdn ni xsegar mane tp luke mama dah beransur pulih rasenyer.... insyaAllah........

ermmm... cm xde idea plak nk tulis per... nnt mama smbung lgla... gpon ade lg 6mgu lg tuk mama nulis, hehehheh tu pon kalu xterbz dek nguruskan 3 permata hati ku..... ....

adios for now...

. urrrmmmmppphhhh .........

~ office, @ 3.11pm, xde mood dah nk masuk office walaupon lambakan kerja semakin hari semakin tinggi.......................................................... :(
am missing.................... missing you so very much....................................................

~~ Salam Aidilfitri ~~

Salam Aidilfitri pada semua rakan2 yg mengenali kami suami isteri, maaf dipinta andai pernah salah berbahasa, salah berkelaku, salah mentafsir dan salah mkn dn mnum. Moga Lebaran kali ini lebih meriah disambut bersama keluarga, sanak saudara dan sahabat handai.

Selamat Menyambut Hari Raya Aidilfitri
Maaf Zahir & Batin

.. my hubby ...

mama wants to dedicate today as abah's special day! heheheh bia la even abah jarang2 bace blog mama, n not so fan of FB, tp mama nk nulis gak...










abah dgn Aqil in 2007...

Abah dgn Zahra in 2009..







rase biase dah ngutuk suami, hehehhe biase la bkn ngutuk pe sgt, mmbebel campo komplen yg ringan2 jer... hari ni mama nk list down every kindness and good things about abah nyer...

tp citer cket2 jer laa............



abah is easily tempered, but after 4 yrs mama dpt predict ape yg boleh mmbuatkan abah cepat marah, so slowly mama is learning...... well, mama rase marriage is a process of living and knowing your spouse better and better for happiness of a lifetime........... kalu x ermm kejap jer laa bertahan..

despite having his temper abah is a very loving father and husband............ xramai yg tahu how spoil he can be when he wants attention... hehehheheh.............. hopefully only i knew......... :)

abah is my handyman @ home, dari bertukang, repair paip air, electrical issue seme bende abah leh wat... just name it n he'll try his best to solve.... tp jgn kaco die wat keje, hehehehe...

abah is helper too... blk pasa musti abah settle seme ikan, udang seme... mama tgal nk mskan aje dorg tu.. bagus x abah nyer? ;o) hihihiih.............

mcm org lain, my beloved hubby may not be as handsome, well dressed mcm org keje ofis tu, but to me he's perfect... just the way he is.......... tall, good looking, just gorgeous!! only mine!...

to abah nyer.............. my love will never ends............ never will, never ever ............ love you dearly sayang.........

sometimes, we took thing for granted and we tend to forget how grateful we should be and how lucky we are compared to those less than us.............

that's y take a minute or two and think.... be thankful .................................